Keeping it Real with 'Own It Babe'- Rini Frey
Posted on February 16 2021
1 month vs 3 months postpartum… In the picture on the left, I legitimately didn’t know if I would ever feel like “myself” again.
My body had just been on a wild 10-month ride including pushing a human being out of me. I was wearing diapers, I was crying for no reason, I had hot flashes, cracked nipples and … to be completely honest, didn’t even want to go poop, let alone think about having sex ever again 😂 This was just my reality and I think it’s okay to talk about that. There were even moments where I wondered if I was cut out to be a mom. Wondered if I’ll ever feel that bond that everyone talks about.
Now that I am almost 3 months postpartum, I actually already feel like I could do this all over again, because it was so worth it. For me, the bond I have with Zoe grew every day. It wasn’t there from the very very start, it just kind of compounded over the weeks. Now I look into her eyes and nothing else matters.
Of course the body image piece and the mental health piece are still things I’m working through. And maybe it will always be a work in progress. BUT: I feel more like myself each and every day. The diapers are gone. The sex feels great (more on that in another post). I am pooping again 😂 and I am committing to tending to things outside of being a mom, so I don’t lose myself.
It’s been a wild journey, but I can’t wait to see what the next 3 months will bring.
I hope this is encouraging for anyone that maybe is afraid of giving birth, of the fourth trimester or of feeling like “you’ll never feel like yourself ever again”. I promise you will. And there’s help and support out there when it comes to your mental health. Don’t feel like you have to go through this alone ❤️
To all the mamas: what did YOUR fourth trimester feel like?
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